Who's your daddy?

Went to the RE's today which went fine. She's a doll come to life really...sweeter would be impossible. So I ask her, "Doc, do you think my chances are still good"? She says, "Just as good as last time". Now, I've spent about the last 8 years going to doctors and clinics and the like at least once a month if not weekly and know what that means. That's the "I don't want to answer that or give you an opinion" answer. Last week someone asked me at work if the sonogrammer will tell you if they see something when they're scanning and I explained, that if they tell you they don't see anything but you need to speak to your doctor you can be pretty sure that's the truth..if they say, I'm only the sonogrammer, I cannot or am not allowed to give you an opinion..yeah, you're most likely in danger of being fucked. So I got that answer and was feeling shitty as I got my underwears on and the rest of my clothes. As I'm opening the door to leave she stops me and says, "Gem, listen, are you using the same donor"? I say, "Yes, but last time it really wasn't my same donor as he ran out so I'm going back to the original one"..."Great" she says and proceeds to explain that when talking with the lab person they said that those sperm did not thaw well nor did they fertilize well and another donor would be better. Now aren't I lucky that this dude isn't someone I'm married to? It's such an odd situation to be in to just be able to switch off. I bumped into the receptionist from my general practioners office in the parking lot, which is always weird to see her there as it's not like it's near where we live...but I digress...she'd told me last time her eggs and her husbands sperm were not compatible and they suggested either donor eggs or donor sperm...neither of which she is willing to do so she's just taking her chances even though they are less than 10%. She's there and she's doing it. I say that takes courage, faith, and emotional strength. Was just talking to one of my friends who I met through my sperm bank line who believes she is PG but from a guy she had a brief relationship with but no longer wants in her life. She asked me what I thought of her not telling him and I told her I was against it...baby needs to know who their father is. When I think about all of us "girls" who are dreaming of our babies and how we go about it and what's important to us, it makes me feel less alone..all of us going about it in a different way with different values and different lives but wanting to be mom's or mom's again. It really is something..it really is beautiful in a way. Hoping all of our dreams come true.